Introduction

Today is Ash Wednesday.  The first day of a Lenten Journey leading up to Easter, and the resurrection of Jesus Christ.  I wanted to add a blog as part of my Journey to help document my daily thoughts, realizations, happenings, and doings.  I wanted to have a record of everything that has been going on in my life, in order to help bring me closer to our Heavenly Father.  And yes...I made this visible to all of the world wide internet.  Why?  Good question.  Hopefully I find a reason as to why I made this public as opposed to just journaling it away in a private book.

I decided that I needed an outlet for me to be able to document and talk about everything that has been happening in my life in the past few years, since I graduated from college.  I want to try to log these memories while establishing myself in a new city for the first time as an adult.  This could get interesting, let me tell you.  So...where to begin...

Ash Wednesday...the first of many days leading to Easter to prepare us for Jesus' rising from the dead.  It is a time that we reflect on everything that has happened in the past year...how we have grown, how we have faltered, and how we have stayed the same.  I can honestly tell you that not much of me has stayed the same within this past year.  There has been a lot of growing and changing, and all for the better, in my opinion.

As part of my Lenten journey, I have given up Facebook.  *GASP*  How can anyone give up Facebook?  Not that!!  Yes...that.  I have decided to quit cold turkey for the entire time that we are celebrating Lent.  I refuse to log into Facebook.  I refuse to chat on Facebook.  I refuse to update my profile on Facebook.  You may ask, what about your friends' profiles?  Don't you want to know what's going on in their lives???

I love my friends dearly, and, if it is something really important, then they know they can freely call me, text me, or email me outside of Facebook.  I'm just tired of feeling like a Facebook stalker and showing how much I care to my friends, while at times it doesn't seem like they really show reciprocity.  I sometimes get jealous as to how they are only paying attention to their closest friends and don't really seem to care about what is happening in my life.  At least, that's the way it seems.

I'm tired of the pettiness associated with Facebook.  I'm tired of these feelings that aren't really me.  I want to find me again, and for the first time in the past year, I am finally feeling at peace with the world again.  And it has taken awhile to get here.  But I think that's a story for another time.  So...Ash Wednesday...

Everything I have given up this Lent or tried to do, both for myself and for God, is to help strengthen my relationship with God and hopefully help me to hear His voice a little clearer.  I am finally feeling stability coming, and it is a much needed, welcomed, stability to my life.  :)

I am working on growing as a human being and trying to be the best person that God would want me to be this Lent.  I am trying to locate the person that I was before everything these past two years happened.  I feel closer to God already.  I cannot wait to see what God has in store for me by the end of this journey.  And lucky you...you get to be around for the entire rollercoasters.  All the ups and downs and loops and spins...hang on tight.  It'll be one heck of a ride.  :) 

~CV